Linda Strawberry

the kids you ran with have gone to rot
just dying as fast as they can
in bed with hot ruin
there's nothing much most people haven't seen at this point..
the destruction can get so boring
so, you are drinking shots off a pornstars ass again*yawn
in the back of some dive pretending to be 'all hard n shit'
killing any safety left
sticking your fat feet more firmly in the shit
the swollen bloated face, liquid eye sockets
its a becoming look for you..
you fall off of the table face first into your own vomit
....used to be funny when we were younger
still beating curfew and pushing each other off of the roof
drinking forties and smashing them behind landmarks
i'd steal your girlfriends and taunt you
i walked past your room once in the morning on my way out
there was some chick riding you but you didnt even know her name
maybe you weren't even conscious.. you didn't even recall it.
she was just another random way to kill time
a spinning carousel of chicks coming and going
picking up the phone was like russian roulette
it was rush hour traffic at 230..
remember when you rescued me from some filthy kitchen
blacked out and rum soaked in my ruined favorite dress
i stood stilletto boots and all under the shower head and passed out on a futon
when i woke up my hair was crusty and my feet were frozen
high glamour - ha.
those were blurry times. the catcher in the rye. and shady acquaintances

September!! i turn 27 on the 9th. and i fully plan to hide somewhere where no one can find me (but justin) and celebrate.
i am sooo happy to be another year further away from my turbulent early twenties. ever since i turned 25 my life has gotten very beautiful.
i am glad i took somewhat of a break from the internet during the month of august. i know i still posted but i didnt really think about it at all.
but since i was away i have soooooo  many things i want to rant about!!
but for today i'll just keep it to the updates. (oops as you can see below i ranted anyway. hahha .. politics..ill get you tomorrow!)
upcoming
LIP DISTORTION - still dont have a release date yet. but it will be this month and i will have it available for free on lindastrawberry.com
i dont know yet if i will have a 'cd' version. im still thinking it over.
STRAWBERRY TV- im working on this as well. i figured that it would be a good thing to make a well thought out segment every month with a song written specifically about the topic and tell you a story from my life about a particular issue i want to tackle. the heavy and the light. depression, suicide, violence, surviving abuse, anxiety, fashion, politics, pop culture..how to survive a breakup.. etc. do you have any requests for episode one?

(here comes the rant machine) i finally feel confident enough and calm enough to be the kind of artist ive always wanted to be. no smoke and mirrors. no glitz and glamour. no publicity stunts or gimmicks. i just want to be myself and have my art planted in reality as i see it. i really care about the people and things i see around me. i am afraid this cultural self esteem void we are in is more harmful to us than we realize. i worry about people who are very young coming into this world as it is. its so much less safe than even when i was 16. i would imagine its very confusing to young girls just trying to find their identity when anorexic fourteen year old girls are held up as a beauty standard and myspace is covered with girls who value themselves by how much skin they show for attention and most of the girls in the press aren't really worth idolizing because most are just fame whores with no real talent. news has been traded for gossip and no one trusts anything they hear. match this with the decline of the music industry so that the artists dont have as much mainstream access...we need better anthems..for example not katy perry's bullshit 'i kissed a girl' glamorizing kissing girls for the benefit of male enjoyment coming from a gospel singer who turned into a gimmick..being the only song getting a push from what's left of capitol records. what a culture!!.. people are selling their baby pictures for millions and exploiting their families on reality tv and it seems like nothing is sacred. its no wonder girls are flocking to jonas brothers concerts with purity rings on! it must seem like such a safe haven. im glad i was protected up to a certain point in mormon utah. i was at least 19 before i was exposed to most things. i have done, tried, lived most things people avoid. i am only grateful for those horrible experiences because they give me insight and understanding. i live in the bullshit capital of the world. hollywood. nothing in this town is solid. it terrifies that this place has so much influence. there are thousands of people falling apart doing drugs and turning to dust because they can't deal with the harsh facts of reality. even people with so called 'success' here feel isolated and as miserable as ever. it takes a certain personality type to weather this place. fame makes you egomanical and self obsessed because that's what it takes to deal with it. the industries start working on you right away if they think they can exploit you. they isolate you and try to reprogram your value system to match theirs. it makes you easier to handle. they make you feel as if you have no other choice but to do it their way. money is god. success is all that matters. but.. so what you get in a magazine or on a red carpet.. a month later who remembers and who cares? so what you get on a tv show for a few weeks.. who's really gonna remember.. and who cares? what does it mean? why does it matter? how does it help anything? what is the legacy?
aaaaaaa get me out of here! haha. we've talked about moving but its agreed justin needs to be here to chase his dreams for the time being. good friends make all the difference here and we are blessed with some of the kind that keep you planted in reality and grounded. the only upside of this place is that if you can find where they are hiding its filled with some of the most interesting talented people i've ever had the privilege to meet. that's the best thing about this year. ive finally realized who im not by trying out some different things that didnt quite fit. by watching people that i love chase fame and success at the cost of their sanity and the things that really matter. at the end of the day when you are on your death bed will you really be satisfied knowing there's alot of random strangers that are going to mourn the reflection they have of you, that there's mountains of 'money' in the bank to be contended over.... or.. is it satisfaction of a life well lived, lessons learned, a beautiful family.. you see my point?
thinking like this has totally changed my priorities.
i love writing and ranting and speaking and caring. i love music and art and all forms of creativity. i want to build up a large body of work. like warhol said i find what im worth by how many songs or how many pieces of art ive made at this point. i want to be able to count them up and know what its worth. it means i have alot of work to do and its totally up to me to accomplish it. works from the heart. i think ive wasted enough of my time worshipping false gods and chasing clouds of dust. success is what you define it to be. and by my definition i have a whole lot of work to do.
besides the fact that i want to have a family and that i believe that will be my greatest accomplishment :) i feel i have many paintings to create and many things to say and songs to sing. why would i want to go further into an industry that would make it more difficult for me to create and have these things?
that is my new train of thought. and im sure if you've been reading my blogs you have seen how ive gradually gotten here.
ok. rant over. thoughts?

blog.myspace.com/strawberry

xxo

                                                                                

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i <3 audrey.
ok. so there's some blogs on lindastrawberry.com
and a ugly photo contest.. will you go vote?

xx

12:50 AM - black widow

i am stalking
up above you
as you slowly
fall into my webs

i'm descending
down upon your
eyes that see me
as a dreamers dream

you are so oblivious
in my web so devious
as i slowly move in for the kill

i am stealth
your lust blinds you
moving closer
bound inside my gaze

your heart is a riot
drunk with danger
you begin to tremble
giving in to the craze

you are so delirious
in my web so devious
as i'm slowly moving for the kill

just close your eyes
beautiful dreams await you
just give in
just give in to me

i am aching
you are unraveling
tightly trapped
your eyes in silent screams

i lick my lips
and drop the curtain
i am a demon
8 spindly legs of death

you are so delirious
in my web so devious
as i slowly move in for the kill

this
this is it
this is the last minute
tick tick tick
this
this is it
these are the last few seconds
this
this is it
this is the last..
CHOMP

manifesto pesto 626 the rust on the strands of time
is braided in second hand
your rippled face is shouting out
all my abuses
ive got boulder arms
and bolder legs

no one can  get me down off this railing
i've fallen out of favor with the gods
the beats are beat out beating off
on the side of the road in their broken down tour bus.

smashing guitars and smashing pumpkins in smashing suits and smashing alarm clocks

when the wells run dry
the fabrics come off quicker
and inch by inch the girl is stripped down to nothing

60,000 wings beating
and they want to pick them off one by one

picasso eyes and raven claws
condensation forms on the lips

im a mother, a harlot, a flapper, a savior, a trainwreck, a shame, a sister, a lover, a hooker, a creator, a destroyer, a spinster, a housewife, a slut, a baker, a suffragete..

you can frame me up and stick pins in
you can scratch every last one of my records

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go get hooked on it!!

yikes.
girls...handle your scandal.
don't take nude photos!! and if you do.. expect that they will come back to haunt you.
i've been on the bad end of that as many of us have...
so i'm trying to give you some good advice. NEVER let a boy take compromising photos of you.
respect yourself enough to deny.
it makes me sad when i hear of it happening to yet another person. :(
that's a horrible thing to do to someone and i wouldnt want to be on the recieving end of that karma.
people who do horrible things to other people always pay for it in the end.

when i was in paris once on tour i found out that a nude 'art' photo of mine had leaked out from the photographer. it was only supposed to be a reference photo for a painting... but.. the photographer did an amazing job and added it to their portfolio.. so.. i found out about this because it was all over forums online and people were saying all kinds of things and being very cruel..i was very upset. so i know how it feels. i was sitting all night long in panic. my hotel room faced the eiffel tower and i should have been enjoying that... but i just sat there staring at it all night panicking.

so..
LEARN FROM OTHER PEOPLE'S NIGHTMARES
dont do it!


xx

im really curious what you think happens..
xx

i thought this would be an interesting topic.
it seems like people have different definitions.. and i get lots of messages about this subject usually. love is dangerous!
what do you consider cheating to be?
xx

im answering questions on lindastrawberry.com
come ask me something! xoxo

mmm. i have a sugar craving today. COOKIE MONSTER
coconut cream pie! chocolate. yummmm

what's your favorite dessert?

i wrote two lonnnnggg blogs on my site lindastrawberry.com that i want you guys to read.
the first is audrey and me visiting this amazing guy named leonard that painted an entire mountain with beautiful messages.
there's a video up on a blog called Salvation Mountain
and there's a really long blog about audrey and me going to Pittsburg to the Warhol Museum where we had a film in it for Factory Girls.
xoxoxoxoxoooxoxo

why is everyone so obsessed!!!!!!!
im 5 7 and i weigh 140.. in WHAT distorted way of thinking is that fat?
should i starve myself? puke? for a retarded standard held in a society that is unhealthfully overweight and whose models are getting thinner and thinner and thinner and thinner til soon they'll have to have organs failing in order make the grade?
GAAAAAH.
i go from 137 to 147 depending on the time of the month. WHO CARES
im healthy. i eat. i exercise. i dont crash diet, over exercise and i try to keep a healthy outlook.
that's fucking amazing considering the lows ive had in the past with eating disorders..
im really proud to say im four years recovered.
but..
it still hurts to hear when someone says im fat or ugly or whatever. im human! words hurt!
people who say that you the internet isnt real and we should all laugh it off or say something back are as bad as the abusers themselves.
i just had to vent!
its been a big subject this week in our house.  it really disturbs me. why are people so hateful?
i want to do all i can do to try to put the OPPOSITE message out..
certain people just make me soo mad!
everyone worries about what they look like.. everyone is way too hard on themselves.
!!!!

my site has launched.
the domain hasnt switched over yet so for now its
uber.com/lindastrawberry

come over and check it out and leave me a comment!! :) ox

its 11:58
i still made it to do my weekly update. barely
i have a diamond glued to my tooth and a bandana on my head to keep the new purple from getting everywhere. (i woke up with a violet arm)
Audrey and I got our hair did at Hairroine Salon (1553 Cahuenga)
where I got TONS of amazing extensions for free thanks to Haute Hollywood Looks. if you are going to get extensions this is definently the place.
I dont want to wash my new color yet til we shoot with Nhat Nyugen this week at an amazing location that ill tell you about later.
I havent been this busy in a long time.
my thoughts have been on my grandmother for days... i hope i can go to the funeral. its just the day after the long beach show so id have to fly out and fly back in in a rush. :( i was hoping to go see her when i was up in seattle because she was a reachable distance.. but now i guess ill just have to talk to her in my meditations like i talk to my other grandma.
i want to get a tattoo in their memory.
i want alot of tattoos right now. if i get one ill be sure to film it.

OH great news! i think lindastrawberry.com is going to be launching this week! yay.
im going to blog blog blog and doing alot of live videos and show step by step with my art projects.. with audrey as well. factory girls will launch when the show at the Warhol opens on the 3rd.

THANKS to everyone who has already signed on to hang out with me and audrey on the tour and dress up and be a part of our 'environment' at the shows. i want more!!! if you are in SAN DIEGO, SAN FRANCISCO, SEATTLE, PORTLAND, SALT LAKE CITY, LAS VEGAS, SCOTTSDALE, LAKE FOREST (OC) or LONG BEACH and you want to help out with the shows write me here or to teamstrawberry@gmail.com
also the red paintings need more human canvases and volunteers.
Audrey and I are going to film the tour so if you volunteer you'll be in it. :)

SEATTLE - you are an all ages show.. so EVERYONE can come!!! :)

SALT LAKE - i have a free guest list.. so send me your names here or to teamstrawberry@gmail.com

lets see. what else.
my head is spinning.

oh! get in your order for the Lost Record this week. they go out on thurs. and thankyou to the people who have ordered this month - you are helping make this tour possible! xo



oh! i forgot I NEED STREET TEAMERS!!!!!!
SAN DIEGO
LONG BEACH
SAN FRANCISCO
SEATTLE
PORTLAND
SALT LAKE
LAS VEGAS
SCOTTSDALE

will you help me get the word out? these shows are going to be so unique and i want to make sure that people know about them.
will you post one of the flyers for me?

ok here they are again.





love with nacho cheese on top. wanna know what's so bad? im craving chocolate caramel fudge and movie popcorn a chicken sausage baguette and nacho cheese! its my damn hormones.
instead im gonna have a blueberri stoli and pomegranate. mmmmmmmmm

here's some pictures from this week. i was lazy with my camera so i will borrow these from my friends..
oh! this was wierd but last night at el compadre justin me audrey bj panda travis and roxxxy got into this discussion about ghosts and travis saw one fly past my head and after i said they mess with electric things sometimes our light flickered... wierd timing. but we were freaking out each other.. when we left we turned on the radio and they were talking about the exact same thing! ooo spooky. so today roxxx looked up haunted places in los angeles and we are going to go investigate.
pictures.. ya.

I have a limited print of the 8 page artbook version of the LOST RECORD available for order.
All orders will be shipped on the 2nd and 4th thursday each month guaranteed or your money back.
This is the last time ill be printing the artbook version so get it while it lasts. :)
as you can see if you get 2 then the shipping is free. ;)

love,

LS & Lovely Chaos Records

go to CLICK HERE
http://www.lindastrawberry.com/blog

xxx

I have been so busy. bzz bzz.

im going to be relaunching lindastrawberry.com very soon in the next few weeks and i plan on making this the summer of art with my personal and factory girls art. we are premiering our factory girls project the day glenn kaino opens his exhibit at the Warhol Museum on May 3rd.
We are a part of a new polaroid exhibit. I’m so excited. I’m honored to be included in the new factory personalities exhibit. :) we shot it today and glenn used Andy’s own polaroid camera.
I am so lucky right now to be surrounded with talented motivated people.
The air is electric around me. I can’t even sleep. I have such bad insomnia from excitement that im breaking out in a rash like the one i got in belgium when i was on tour. eek. must sleep!

tour is going to be very special. Audrey and I have made a special tshirt for it that we will have up very soon. We are only doing one print of it but when its done i will tell you wear you can order it. :)

oh.. i had a blast doing natalia fabia’s hooker pageant. haha. it was so funny.. the girl who won was ’miss one dolla no holla’ she fried an egg while smoking and doing burlesque for her talent. hahahaha.
here are some pictures. (by julie klima)








have any of you seen my ad in a.p. magazine yet? i havent gotten it yet.. i need to buy it. i keep forgetting haha. :)
but me and audrey are going to be at bamboozle at the peta2 booth at around 4 or 5.

ok that’s all for now. im gonna get off this contraption and do some yoga. :)
xo

the sewing needles are flying!
fabric torn asunder and the pieces throw back together
color cacophony!

im done moving.
im
dead
on
my
feet.

but.. SO EXCITED to be a part of the pageant event on tues. april fools day.
natalia is a hot young successful painter and this version of a "pageant" is based on the characters in her paintings.
www.myspace.com/nataliafabia

it should be wild. i have NO idea what to expect. but i will be performing a song and dancing around and wearing a hillarious dress. so...
if you are in hollywood come to the dragonfly on tues night..
:)

ok time to go do some situps because i have to wear that lime green one piece thingy and im scuurrreeddd.

here are a few shots of me and lovely audrey. my p.o.c.
p.s. justin coloma + me + audrey kitching is gonna be the craziest art house ever! CHAOS FACTORY!
( oh dont forget larry the fat cat who is hiding IN my boxspring mattress.. he’s afraid of the giant unicorn balloon in the kitchen... i guess we know who’d pop out of his closet in Monsters Inc.  )

















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are you going to bamboozle this weekend in irvine, CA? i’ll be there with audrey doing some signing for our skelanimals peta2 campaign if you wanna come say hi and hang out with us.. ill give you more details later in the week.

RED PAINTINGS TOUR!
ok.. ill be blogging writing so much about this coming up..
if you wanna help out street teaming go to www.myspace.com/teamstrawberry for details.
ill post some stuff up tomorrow.
so much to do! this month  going ot be BANANAS.
STRAWBERRY BANANA FLAVORED APRIL.

oooo and im gonna have a new lindastrawberry.com up.. where ill probably move my blog.. and be able to post lots more stuff thanks to uber.com
ive been trying to figure out where to put all my content and ive tried alot of sites out and i uber is run by artists so i think its the right place.
but more on that later..

until then..
if you are on facebook search for me and ill pop up..
im also on ilike on facebook

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also if you havent heard about lastfm.com its great!
it links to your itunes and you can share music with your friends..
http://www.last.fm/music/Linda+Strawberry
i just discovered it. :)

ok........ time to do situps and then sleep. we moved a fancy bed in. its like sleeping on clouds.
:)

zzzzzzzzzzzzz